kenny

How is it that we live through death? I don't mean death in actual physical
dying, but in the dying that happens at different times throughout life. Where
one is left with absolutely nothing to hold onto, all absolutes becomes
relative & relational-ative, when the only thing left to do is not struggle &
fight anymore, but just give in.

Interesting, I'm not morbidly dealing through this right now, but am seeing
friends deal with this part of life & for the first time able to indentify with
it, but from the other side. Not that I'm any better, I'm sure my time will come
sometime soon (in fact as I get a little older, it seems like it is more
frequent a state, with breaks for catching up though).

What encourages me in this is that we're not alone. It doesn't mean that true
life is over, but rather that its moving forward.

<a
href='http://www.biblegateway.com/passage/?book_id=23&chapter=102&version=31'>http://www.biblegateway.com/passage/?book_id=23&chapter=102&version=31</a>

what, makes sense to me...

"A carpenter who keeps his clothes clean by working in the nude was arrested after a client returned home early and found him building bookcases in the buff.

Honniball said Thursday that working in the nude gave him a better range of motion and that a skilled craftsman can work clothing -- and injury -- free."
http://www.cnn.com/2006/US/04/22/naked.carpentry.ap/index.html

after a fairly rough, draining set of weeks, i realize that something that really can recharge me is being around friends. on monday night we went to a get-together where we saw some of our best friends in the world as well as other acqaintances & some other friends.

having time to laugh, talk, listen & connect with other people fills me up. when i should have been tired from long work days, too much cheese, wine & smoking a cigar for an hour+, i felt the exact opposite. the next morning too.

it's funny cause, while i'm not introverted, i do like time to myself & don't consider myself a very good conversationalist, but even still what actually recharges me is a combination of being totally to myself and being totally submersed around other people.